No matter how much you will oppose me like in the past.
I WILL NEVER LOSE TO YOU.

I'm going to fight for myself. I had enough of listening to you. I had enough of you blocking my birght future. You are always always ALWAYS BRINGING ME DOWN.

Canot Step out of singapore till 21 YEARS OLD? FUCK YOU.
YOU MY MOTHER. SO WHAT?! FUCK YOU BITCH!
Till this day you and father always made me wonder, WHY THE FUCK I WAS BORN IN THIS WORLD!

I am NOT your puppet. I am not your DOG.

I am a HUMAN. I have dreams! I have dreams to become a designer! I have a path I WILL TAKE. I will go to the BEST Design school in KL. The school where many Famous designer graduated! It can give me ENGLAND degree. I will take only 2 years to complete some more. YOU look down on Malaysia's education. YOU are wrong! People come to singapore to study for the basic and Math/ Sci Stuff! No one comes to singapore to study DESIGN. It's STUPID.

You didn't want to support in everything and anything I do. Everything is stupid to you.
I will go to Japan. You want to chase me out? BE MY GUEST.
I will go to the extreme. Call police? I see what you can do! COME!

I HAVE DREAMS. ASPIRATION. PLANS OF MY OWN.

I will Graduate from SP. I will get my diploma. I will go KL study for degree. I will work for my own.
I will travel to Japan this month. I will travel to Japan next April too. I will go to Desaru with Friends.
I will rent my own room even if I have to! I will find a Job. Whatever Job I can find. Even if I have to pay my own school fees. You think you can Get me just because I'm in debts. YOU CANNOT.
YES. I have NO MONEY NOW. I WILL FIND MONEY. I WILL TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

You want to lock me up in Singapore forever?! Excuses like KL not safe and you hate Japan?!
FUCK?! NON OF MY BUSINESS. If other kids can go KL survive, WHY NOT ME.
I CAN.

From young, You chose my primary school. You chose my CCA. You chose my secondary school. You chose my CCA again. You made me go for MANY Tuition. You don't let me learn ANYTHING related to MUSIC. You don't approve I learn art. You throw many many assessment books at me! You made me cry and made me think I'm useless and small whenever I cannot get the good grades. You made me get BULLIED by teachers. You made me Get BULLIED by other kids in school! YOU GUYS EVEN BULLY ME AT HOME. I HAD ENOUGH. STOP STEPPING ALL OVER MY LIFE. STOP STEPPING ALL OVER ME. I DO WHAT I WANT.

I wanted to learn Piano so badly.I wanted to join chinese dance yet you discouraged me even when I was the best dancer in P1.  I wanted to join Chinese Orchestra so badly in Secondary school. You opposed me. You always does. You make me learn all the things I hate. You made me go for KUMON classes when I wished I took art classes.

Whatever I want to do. You think it's bad and useless. I HATE YOU. YOU BLOCK MY FUTURE for 17 YEARS. I wanted to do Animation and 3D arts. You don't let me. EVERYTHING I DO I HAD TO TRY TO IMPRESS YOU. I always try to make you feel happy. FOR 17 Years. I WAS A DOG. Listening to whatever you wanted. I took SDE since you think engineering is the best for me. Only to be disappointed. I study everyday. Miserable. Everything was miserable. I DON'T WANT TO FEEL MISERABLE FOR 3 FUCKING YEARS.

I change course. I change my life. I learn my favorite language. I learn Japanese. I scroll the web and so many companies SMC looking for people who can speak korean and japanese. I realized i learn very useful things. YOU. MY MOTHER. IGNORANT AS FUCK.

When  I went Japan. So wonderful. Sumer help me so many times. She always does. Everyone helped me. Gordon was like a big brother to me. Everything was good. I learn new culture. I see new things. I interviewed an Illustrator. I learned so much! I took many nice photos. Half my HTI journal pictures were photos taken in tokyo! It was a inspiring trip. I improved my Japanese a lot too.

I worked so hard for so many months for this trip. You cannot see. You cannot understand!
I studied my japanese so hard. I was so happy to pass JLPT N4.
I am so happy. So happy to know that the choices and handwork I made,
It was right. It lead me to happier life. It made me feel more useful.

What are you doing to me here?
You want to lock me up in singapore. You want me to take govt uni for design.
Fuck?! If you can find me a design uni in singapore that is under govt. YOU FIND ME ONE.
THERE IS NO SUCH THINGS.
SIM have. Yet it's private.
FUCK. You think ERIC IS OBEDIENT?
WHEN I WAS OBEDIENT. YOU DIDNT THINK I WAS OBEDIENT?
WHEN HE HURT YOU AND THROW FIST AT FATHER. DID YOU THINK HE WAS OBEDIENT?

NOW YOU THINK HE'S OBEDIENT. JUST BECAUSE HE'S LIKE A DOG. WAGGING HIS TAIL AT YOU. BECAUSE HE'S YOU SON. SON OF A BITCH.

YOU WANT TO SAVE SOME MONEY? GREAT. FANTASTIC. EXCELLENT.
EVEN IF I DIE. I WILL NEVER EVER RECOGNIZED YOU.

I WILL STUDY UNI MYSELF. I DON'T NEED YOU STINKY MONEY.
A MOTHER WHO ONLY CARES ABOUT HER SONS.
SENDS HER SON TO AMERICA FOR DEGREE.
SENDS SON TO PRIVATE SINGAPORE UNI.
A FATHER WHO ONLY WANTS WHAT HE WANTS.
ALL OF YOU ARE SELFISH.

I AM NOT YOUR DOG. I HAVE BACKBONE.
EVEN IF I LOAN, I WILL GO.
I HATE THIS HOUSE.
I HATE ALL OF YOU.

FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE. FOR FUCKING FUCK SAKE.

No matter how much you will oppose me like in the past.
I WILL NEVER LOSE TO YOU.

I'm going to fight for myself. I had enough of listening to you. I had enough of you blocking my birght future. You are always always ALWAYS BRINGING ME DOWN.

Canot Step out of singapore till 21 YEARS OLD? FUCK YOU.
YOU MY MOTHER. SO WHAT?! FUCK YOU BITCH!
Till this day you and father always made me wonder, WHY THE FUCK I WAS BORN IN THIS WORLD!

I am NOT your puppet. I am not your DOG.

I am a HUMAN. I have dreams! I have dreams to become a designer! I have a path I WILL TAKE. I will go to the BEST Design school in KL. The school where many Famous designer graduated! It can give me ENGLAND degree. I will take only 2 years to complete some more. YOU look down on Malaysia's education. YOU are wrong! People come to singapore to study for the basic and Math/ Sci Stuff! No one comes to singapore to study DESIGN. It's STUPID.

You didn't want to support in everything and anything I do. Everything is stupid to you.
I will go to Japan. You want to chase me out? BE MY GUEST.
I will go to the extreme. Call police? I see what you can do! COME!

I HAVE DREAMS. ASPIRATION. PLANS OF MY OWN.

I will Graduate from SP. I will get my diploma. I will go KL study for degree. I will work for my own.
I will travel to Japan this month. I will travel to Japan next April too. I will go to Desaru with Friends.
I will rent my own room even if I have to! I will find a Job. Whatever Job I can find. Even if I have to pay my own school fees. You think you can Get me just because I'm in debts. YOU CANNOT.
YES. I have NO MONEY NOW. I WILL FIND MONEY. I WILL TAKE CARE OF MYSELF.

You want to lock me up in Singapore forever?! Excuses like KL not safe and you hate Japan?!
FUCK?! NON OF MY BUSINESS. If other kids can go KL survive, WHY NOT ME.
I CAN.

From young, You chose my primary school. You chose my CCA. You chose my secondary school. You chose my CCA again. You made me go for MANY Tuition. You don't let me learn ANYTHING related to MUSIC. You don't approve I learn art. You throw many many assessment books at me! You made me cry and made me think I'm useless and small whenever I cannot get the good grades. You made me get BULLIED by teachers. You made me Get BULLIED by other kids in school! YOU GUYS EVEN BULLY ME AT HOME. I HAD ENOUGH. STOP STEPPING ALL OVER MY LIFE. STOP STEPPING ALL OVER ME. I DO WHAT I WANT.

I wanted to learn Piano so badly.I wanted to join chinese dance yet you discouraged me even when I was the best dancer in P1.  I wanted to join Chinese Orchestra so badly in Secondary school. You opposed me. You always does. You make me learn all the things I hate. You made me go for KUMON classes when I wished I took art classes.

Whatever I want to do. You think it's bad and useless. I HATE YOU. YOU BLOCK MY FUTURE for 17 YEARS. I wanted to do Animation and 3D arts. You don't let me. EVERYTHING I DO I HAD TO TRY TO IMPRESS YOU. I always try to make you feel happy. FOR 17 Years. I WAS A DOG. Listening to whatever you wanted. I took SDE since you think engineering is the best for me. Only to be disappointed. I study everyday. Miserable. Everything was miserable. I DON'T WANT TO FEEL MISERABLE FOR 3 FUCKING YEARS.

I change course. I change my life. I learn my favorite language. I learn Japanese. I scroll the web and so many companies SMC looking for people who can speak korean and japanese. I realized i learn very useful things. YOU. MY MOTHER. IGNORANT AS FUCK.

When  I went Japan. So wonderful. Sumer help me so many times. She always does. Everyone helped me. Gordon was like a big brother to me. Everything was good. I learn new culture. I see new things. I interviewed an Illustrator. I learned so much! I took many nice photos. Half my HTI journal pictures were photos taken in tokyo! It was a inspiring trip. I improved my Japanese a lot too.

I worked so hard for so many months for this trip. You cannot see. You cannot understand!
I studied my japanese so hard. I was so happy to pass JLPT N4.
I am so happy. So happy to know that the choices and handwork I made,
It was right. It lead me to happier life. It made me feel more useful.

What are you doing to me here?
You want to lock me up in singapore. You want me to take govt uni for design.
Fuck?! If you can find me a design uni in singapore that is under govt. YOU FIND ME ONE.
THERE IS NO SUCH THINGS.
SIM have. Yet it's private.
FUCK. You think ERIC IS OBEDIENT?
WHEN I WAS OBEDIENT. YOU DIDNT THINK I WAS OBEDIENT?
WHEN HE HURT YOU AND THROW FIST AT FATHER. DID YOU THINK HE WAS OBEDIENT?

NOW YOU THINK HE'S OBEDIENT. JUST BECAUSE HE'S LIKE A DOG. WAGGING HIS TAIL AT YOU. BECAUSE HE'S YOU SON. SON OF A BITCH.

YOU WANT TO SAVE SOME MONEY? GREAT. FANTASTIC. EXCELLENT.
EVEN IF I DIE. I WILL NEVER EVER RECOGNIZED YOU.

I WILL STUDY UNI MYSELF. I DON'T NEED YOU STINKY MONEY.
A MOTHER WHO ONLY CARES ABOUT HER SONS.
SENDS HER SON TO AMERICA FOR DEGREE.
SENDS SON TO PRIVATE SINGAPORE UNI.
A FATHER WHO ONLY WANTS WHAT HE WANTS.
ALL OF YOU ARE SELFISH.

I AM NOT YOUR DOG. I HAVE BACKBONE.
EVEN IF I LOAN, I WILL GO.
I HATE THIS HOUSE.
I HATE ALL OF YOU.

FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE. FOR FUCKING FUCK SAKE.

I have a dream. My dream is to become a Graphic Designer. I'm currently pursuing Dip. Visual Communication & Media Design in Singapore Polytechnic. I aim to finish my diploma and study at "the one acadamy" for a degree. Right now, that is my greatest aim in life. I'm an aquarius, born on 26 January 1994. 19 Years old this year. I'm living in Singapore now but I'm born in Malaysia. I'm an Otaku. I love Anime and Proud to be a J-Lover.

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